Olivia

I remember the drive home when the blind hope 

Turned to crying and screaming, "Why?" 

Flowers piled up in the worst way 

No one knows what to say about a beautiful boy who died 

And it's about to be Halloween 
You could be anything you wanted if you were still here 
I remember the last day when I kissed your face 
I whispered in your ear 

Come on baby with me 

We're gonna fly away from here 

Out of this curtained room and this hospital gray will just disappear 

Come on baby with me 

We're gonna fly away from here 

You were my best four years 

What if I'm standing in your closet trying to talk to you? 

What if I kept the hand me downs you won't grow into? 

And what if I really thought some miracle would see us through? 

But what if the miracle was even getting one moment with you 

 

Come on baby with me 

We're gonna fly away from here 

Come on baby with me 

We're gonna fly away from here 

You were my best four years 

I remember your bare feet down the hallway 

I love you to the moon and back

Breathe

I am probably THE WORST blogger there is, and have completely fallen behind on my "blogging duties", however, the past 3 years have not been good to our families. We have been on a wild roller coaster ride called "life" and it seems to just as simply put it: SUCK.

But, today I come to all you blogger peeps out there to ask for Prayer, prayer for a 16 month old little girl who is very ill. Prayer to give the doctors wisdom and guidance to help this baby girl, prayer for a mommy who has had a rough couple of years and especially 6 months, who needs strength to get through the day, who needs wisdom and guidance to make the best decision for her sweet baby girl, who just needs to feel comforted in this time of need. I pray that Our God, the almighty healer, would wrap his arms around her and her baby girl so tightly and just love on them both. Let them know that they are not alone, that HE is here and HE will protect them and watch over them and heal them from their hurt, pain and suffering.

I am left with a song by MercyMe that I feel verbalizes our feelings so perfectly:

                                                                           Why?

 The question that is never far away

 The healing doesn’t come from the explained

 Jesus please don’t let this go in vain 

 You’re all I have All that remains 

 So here I am What’s left of me

 Where glory meets my suffering 

 I’m alive 

 Even though a part of me has died 

 You take my heart and breathe it back to life

 I’ve fallen into Your arms open wide

 When the hurt and the healer collide

 Breathe Sometimes I feel it’s all that I can do

 Pain so deep that I can hardly move

 Just keep my eyes completely fixed on You

 Lord take hold and pull me through 

 People tell you that all you have to do is breathe, when all else seems so dark and faded, when your whole world seems to have fallen apart, you are asked to breathe. The hardest part about breathing is how much it hurts to breathe, you feel like your chest is caving in and this intense pain takes over you so fast. I wake up throughout the night with such a heavy burden and pain throughout my chest and body and tell myself "just breathe" yet its my memories that I can't escape, its my memories that cause this pain, because in that moment you realize it's not a dream, that this is in fact your reality and your your reality is your nightmare.

 I try and remind myself of all the things in life I should be grateful for, that we still have so much joy and happiness left, and I try to be strong, I try to be optimistic, I try to be happy and put on a smiling face. I know that life could be much worse, and I am grateful for all the wonderful things I do have. Right now we are on a rocky road and we are swimming to catch our breathe so we don't drown, but I know that I trust and believe in the one true God and I have faith that HE will pull us all out of this darkness and we will see that light at the end of the tunnel. I put my faith and trust in HIM. 

 Thank you for the prayers.

 xoxo Lauren

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I LOVE T-SWIFT!!!!

My new Obsession....

So I found a new obsession... and everyone should try it!!!

It's call pinterest, its a website and an app and you can go to it and create little boards with things you LOVE! You can follow your friends or strangers and it has really creative DIY ideas, as well as recipes, fashion and so forth! I am officially OBSESSED!

Check it Out.....

oh HAPPY day!!!

Even though I did not sleep well last night and I seem to be VERY forgetful today!! August 1st has started out to be a relatively wonderful day! I had lunch with a wonderful friend who had some very wonderful news! And tonight will be pizza night with my husband and puppies!

Now if it wouldn't be so hot outside it would be even better!!! :-)

Congrats to my girlfriend and her husband on their very HAPPY day!!!!

We love our nieces!!!!

Thought we would share some sweet photos of our 7 adorable, fun, cute, crazy nieces!!! I love them so much! and can never get enough!

Jameson giving Elle or has he calls her "Nori" some love.... during our babysitting!


Meet the twins Eleanor and Olivia Wallis... showing Aunt Lala some loves!!!!


The newest addition to the Sapaugh Clan- Madden Quinn!!!!




And last but certainly not least the three cutest sweetest flower girls!!!!




We are sooo blessed!!! :-)

Us in Terms of ABC's

Us, in terms of the ABC's... I stole this from the Snider's!
A

- Anxious about: meeting with our homeowners association... ridic
- Age: 26 and 26 (he's older though)
- Anniversary: May 14, 2011
- Animals: Holly Berry and Pastor

B

- Birthdays: 10/22/84 and 5/28/85
- Best Memory: The day he proposed
- Best Feeling: everytime he hugs me and tells me he loves me :-)

C

- Children: ... NONE
- Chinese or Mexican food: Mexican
- Continent to visit: Europe for sure- Italy, Greece, Austria, France... maybe next summer we will see

D

- Day or night: Umm... I am a night Jameson is a day
- Domestic Responsibilities: I do all the household chores, he does all the outdoor stuff.
E

- Everyone knows we: love going to the movies and eating out!


F

- First thoughts waking up: take the dogs out they are driving me nuts!
- Favorite thing to do: Go on walks
- Favorite Place to eat: Ninfas and Samari

G

- Greatest fear: I hate snakes and bugs, Jameson is afraid of zombies
- Goals: graduate from grad school, move up in our careers, buy a house, have lots of kids!
- Great Day: Make a yummy breakfast, go on a walk/bike ride, hang out with the puppies and friends/family!
- Get along with each other's parents: of course!

H

- Happy Thought: planning the future!
- Holidays: spent with both families

I

- Ideal Life: ?? Take it one day at a time... see what the future brings

J

-Just for fun: Sno Cones and Ice Cream Dates
-Job: Jameson works for the city and is in grad school, I am in charge of development for an assisted living company

K

- Keepsakes: Pictures and kind of weird magnets for our fridge and steins

L

- Love: Food, Puppies!
- Laughed so hard you cried: I think I am really funny and when I think I did or said something funny and Jameson doesn't agree I laugh so hard I cry

M

- Must have snack: Ice cream
- Memories: The past 6 years, being together, getting engaged, wedding day, honeymoon all of our trips together!

N

- Never would we: have snakes!

O

- One wish: To have a happy healthy family!
- Optimistic about: the future!
P

- Perfect Date: San Diego riding cruiser bikes on the beach


Q

- Quiet times: When Jameson works in the yard and I watch tv with the pups!

R

- Respect: ALWAYS
- Reason we fell in love: He couldn't live without me! We make each other laugh!

S

- Sushi: Jameson loves! I am not that big of a fan
- Secrets: We don't like them!

T

- Time for bed: between 10 and 11 - Jameson always falls asleep first
- Traveling: We love to travel- hoping to make it to Europe soon!

U

- Unpredictable: Everyday!

V

- Vacation spot(s): Hawaii, Nevis, San Diego, TN!

W

- Weaknesses: mexican food, ice cream and a good shopping deal?
- Who is the quietest: Jameson, I love to talk!

X

- eXtremely: Excited about what the future holds for us!

Y

- Year you met: 1999
- Year you got engaged: 2010
- Year you were married: 2011

Z

- Zoo: We love going to the zoo!!! Jameson acts out all of the animals! :-)